Standstill

off the rose tinted water
i can see your shimmering reflection
hues of light from your sterling figure
the sleepless city recognises your perfection

is it selfish to want you to be my secret?
to keep you where its boring and lifeless
in the hope of unrequited love
surged through forced kisses

is it heartless to let you go?
to watch you from afar in blurry polaroids
satisfied by the outline of a smile
i used to try and provoke

im at a standstill
and i cant help but watch
as the stars shift around me,
your paraselene flickering,
the fan in my room still spinning
while i keep dreaming.