Analysis of High Numbers

Checking out the numbers once again
Seeing all the damage that I did
How did I get myself into this?
I guess there were classes I missed

Numbers, numbers are all too damn high
I look inside and question how and why
The simple answer is not that very clear
Dumb decisions and now I live with fear

Several sins only made by me
Like not caring and over gluttony
I’ve given up time and time again
Sequestered away from being with my friends

From the years of continuously slowing down
To finding reasons to keep staying around
Moving from the state of depression
Along the highway to less medication

From overeating and overdrinking to where I am now
Lacking the will power to put the snacks down
It's not easy to escape from life with a bottle
But the sneers and the smirks were more than just subtle

Beyond time now to work really hard
With every journey you have to start
To look at my shadow and feel the fire once more
This will take hard work as I look at the mirror