Analysis of Holidays I used to adore

Holidays I used to adore
Family Time spent and shared
These things I love no more
Heartache strings the empty chairs

Will this pain ever subside
Life together, family cares
With you gone from my side
How shattered pieces fill the air

My head spins and my anxiety rises
When I think of how you departed
Put on a happy face for Yule tides
Will the kids notice how good cheer smarted

Separated life is not the same
My inner core of strength is tapped
Every time I hear her name, am I somehow to blame
Feels so painful like I have been slapped

I used to love holidays
when we were a family
There was reason to savor those days
Now it is fallout riddled with casualty

No more happy family portraits
To strewn our walls
Only get pity from friends, mates
Isolate from it all

How could you do this to me
And leave me with pieces to mend
Is this real, could our family end really be
Were you ever even my friend

All lies and deceit, twenty years gone with the wind
Still left raising four children
Where have you been
Still in their lives, but exed me out and resigned

Holidays were joyous, Christmas was fun
seeing your new family on Halloween, now avoid walking same streets
Your heart she has won
The home-wrecker plagues plots and creeps
The damage can never be undone

How does this sit well
In you conscience, on your mind
The family you abandoned
The wife you left behind

The woman you swore you’d never leave me for
Our life was happy before she got here
No more cheer when you walked out the door
Merry Christmas and happy new year