Analysis of Is this my Happy Ending ??

I sit down,
and can't help it, but feel like a clown.
I gave you all I had,
but I guess it was all bad.
Giving you all my love I wonder,
was it all just a blunder?

It started with ignoring my text,
I should've given it a rest.
I took my time to invest,
in something that had no interest.
And I ended up with no profit,
Is it true to say that I lost it?

Secondly, my calls rejected,
I feel like I'm infected.
With a virus so lethal,
on phone and you're on another level.
I should have seen it coming,
am I unbecoming?

I felt so worthless,
my life, hopeless.
I was done for,
hurt to the core.
Alive but in a grave,
this much pain, do I deserve?

Luck is on my side,
I found myself a bride.
All my wounds healed,
for the times I grieved.
I have a good feeling,
is this my happy ending?