katherineb.45444's Saved Poems

This pendulum of life,
Why does it move,
from left to right?

Why does one's heart,
feel full and then empty?

It hurts and then heals,
these emotions we feel.

Haves or have nots,
in the middle, there's a lot.

A goal for harmony
...

Why?I need to know why
Im afraid and I will lose my mind
I just want to know why?
why would you, and
why you?
Do you ever think about me,
or ask yourself, why?
Why would...

Look inside this heart,
And see the world within,
A tapestry of love and light,
Where all things begin.

See the dreams that dance and play,
The hopes that soar so high,
The passions that burn so bright,
Beneath the bluest sky.

See the...

When your love is an illusion, a fleeting dream,
A shimmering mirage in the desert's gleam,
In the depth of night, where shadows loom,
You find your heart wrapped in a mystic gloom.

In the realm of make-believe, you're ensnared,
By a love...

My God my God why have Thou forsaken thee
Screaming through this storm unheard
Heartbroken alone begging you to comfort me
Your mercy I have never deserved
Yearning for you to take this saddle
I’m really not ready for this battle

My child...

Thanks for being a friend. When the world turns its shade on me...thanks for spreading light.
Thanks for being a friend. When I needed someone to talk to u listened
Thanks for being a friend. U hold me close.
Never let go of me.
You All I...

I Miss Me

I miss me
The me I use to be
Back when she was happy
I miss me

Where did I go
Honestly I don't know
The pain began to grow
And she had to go

She must be afraid
The price she's paid
The friends she's made
And still she...

I am so sorry for the one you lost
I hate to see you feeling so down
I wish I could take away all the pain
That you’re feeling deep down inside

I know telling you that it’s going to be ok
Isn’t the most easiest thing to say to you
Your...

It's going to be like this forever,
medicate me until I can’t feel,
that's what you wanted from me, right?
You want to make me normal,
but i'm not the person i was when I was born,
something went wrong in the mixing bowl;
too many...

The sun lies hidden behind a cloud.
As I hide my bruises from the crowd.
I lay each night too afraid to sleep.
While you tell me I am yours to keep.
 
Days slip by into months and then years.
My cries of pain no one ever hears.
Too afraid to stay,...

Absence

Your absence is silence
that screams to be heard
like re-reading a sentence
but not grasping one word.

The blandness of white
needing a splash of blue or green
like observing a masterpiece
and it remaining unseen.

Missing...

Perfect. They said she’s perfect.
They said you were confused,
You're too immature.
And you wouldn’t be if you only were,
To walk and talk and act like her.
She’s perfect.
They said “Do better.”
But the problem is this,
What they think is...

The bird song lifts my crinkled brow
How will this day unfold
A glimmer of light sets hope inside
The darkness stayed too long this time

Pain engraved so very deep
I'm sore to touch sometimes
The pressure builds, I fight for breath
I hold...

Sometimes you have to die just a little bit
If you’re looking for any hope to survive
Sometimes in order to thrive - feel the thrill of it -
You have to take a deep dive

Kill off a part of yourself, thinking it’ll make it alright
Threaten to...

I, like the gentle waves,
grow more treacherous
the further into my depths you wade.
I, like the gentle waves,
deceive with a calm facade
and soon,
by an undercurrent,
you are pulled
far, far from whence you came,
solid footing long...

Of all the things from coast to coast
My pillows what I love most.
It holds my head with all its dreams
And listens to tomorrow's schemes.

When there are tears, it wipes them dry
So no one ever knows I cry.
If I'm scared I hold it tight
It...

Waves break as I awake on the misty shore of my mind
Memories old and secrets told are what the ocean leaves behind
As the sunset sky drifts slowly by, I rise to stare at the sea
And wonder if this place I'm in is the home of eternity

I stroll...

memories and dreams, i thought by now they woulda faded
but you're stuck like a picture in my mind
a hope and glimpse of frozen time
a hope of finally having you in my life
pain that stayed and followed me
still weighed down by these...

The moment you let people into your life - you exposed yourself to vulnerability
The worst part about betrayal - it doesn't come from your enemy
You put your whole trust into someone - you ended up being let down
Fake memories flooded your chest...

A journey that began laced with pain,
She tried to rise above it time and again,
Little girl did all the things she was told,
Little girl died inside at 12 years old.

The fear in her turned into anger and hate,
Little girl lost her whole...

NO WAY OUT
No way out, compressed in this mould,
Leaded heart, the magnet grabs hold,
An ongoing battle, trying to break free,
Locked in this dungeon and you've got the key,
Trapped in lonliness, yearning for heat,
It's winter four seasons,...

THAT FOUR LETTER WORD
It's a constant craving,
A hunger within,
A restless feeling,
An uncommitted sin,
A desire, a hope,
A fire inside,
Burning so strong,
You just can't hide,
A yearning passion,
A feeling so deep,
A long winding road,
...

A golden sun rises as another day begins
Dark grey feelings piercing tooth-shaped pins
Deep inside happiness and deflating the shield
On goes the armour to face a battlefield
Stay well protected while keeping ahead
Don't dare delay and appear...

The Whispered Peace

In the evening twilight the sun is almost gone
Sadness overtakes me for all the things gone wrong

Questions with no answers things I cannot know
Waves of grief surround me unrest fills my soul

And as the darkness...

To my old self,

Please always leave the light on
In case I need to find you.
I know I’ve wandered far away,
But I need the girl that I knew.

I think I’ve lost myself,
So guide me with your light.
The spark inside of me has died
So I’m...

It's only words and that is all,
None could cause someone's downfall.
So allow me to give you a short lesson
First are words that are full of...

Where did all the time go
For so long I can't believe I felt this low

It wasn't just a passing phase
My mind was in a cloudy haze

It was hard to fake being happy
When you're feeling this crappy

So I slowly withdrew
From all the people I...

Sometimes the little girl inside,
needs affirmination,
for a long time she has had to hide,
until her dreams come into fruition,
She has tried to allow her conscious to be her guide,
keeping everything in check,
though she would often slide,
...

A Barren Miracle

Prompt: A Road That's Worth Traveling A Million Miles

Elenore Saga Part: 4

Dear diary, it's Charles checking in
It's a crisp November morning
I do not wish to confess any sin
As I hear her beautiful snoring

I have an...

Oh lord how i try to drink from this cup. When i do fail you are my backup. You get me on track on where i should be. Not suffering satans tortured agony. Oh lord how i try but i often fail. Pulling me down and making me frail. My backup you are...

It is uncovered, open and bare
It is made so to give, receive and care
Uncovered with self-interest, profit, caution
To care what it's set for in ardour and devotion
Open to tell us what It bears
To give Its feelings fully It dares
Bare and...

S itting alone
A bout to cry
D oubting yourself
N ot knowing why
E ven though you try to be nice
S omeone brings you down
S omeone makes you think...

Failure to learn, learn to not yearn,
Life can take some unrealistic turn,
Be very careful and take decisions stern,
Before it is time for you to adjourn..

Falling to rise, rising to shine,
Carve out a path, don't let yourself whine
There’s...

I dreamt the impossible
I saw you Lord it over

I prayed for the crown of thorns
Pass me not, least I fall like man

The waves and vices have me in drowns
Revive me please, least I die a fool to you and self

May these little hairs cause...

Why be the way I am?
Why listen to anyone and everyone who speaks?
Why be a stepping stone for other people?
Why let people control my actions and thoughts?
Why, Why,...

THE ONLY TIME IN GOD

 
I ask God why He doesn't move as He did back then?

I seen Him tapping his arm like he wore a watch, here's where He begin.

 
Who is man to tell me when to move or even how long,

For I AM THAT I AM, I move when...

It's more than a little bit strange,
how much our lives, we rearrange.

  With only one thing here that's for sure,
is as a baby, so innocent and pure.

  His name, just to speak it, mighty it be,
as He hung there for you and me.

  ...

the ones we've read
We must save to read another day

if we find the time.

Do you ever feel
like the past is true
Again, sometimes?

these tides they come and go
Life ebbs and flows.

you'll wake up tomorrow
And remember the way

...

When am stranded and hopeless
When my destiny seems to fall apart
I will lean on You dear Lord
For Your mercy and grace are limitless
In every situation, You remain the same

When storms will try to bring me down
Though I may cry from dusk to...

I am broken and in tears buried
All my friends got married
Am hopeless and worried
Keeping crying day and night
Lord, give me light

They said I will not make it
They tell me "just quit"
My family and friends have run away
How am I going to...

Wearing the mask; you’re not up to the task,
I watch as you stumble and fall.
I wanted to ask as I sipped from my flask,
Why you can’t keep your eye on the ball?

A swing and a miss; many swings without hits.
Though you practice it never gets...

`You know Orion always comes up sideways.
Throwing a leg up over our fence of mountains,
And rising on his hands, he looks in on me
Busy outdoors by lantern-light with something
I should have done by daylight, and indeed,
After the ground is...

God made a beatous garden
With lovely flowers strown,
But one straight, narrow pathway
That was not overgrown.
And to this beauteous garden
He brought mankind to live,
And said: 'To you, my children,
These lovely flowers I give.
Prune ye my vines...

day we may rise again
shake old dust from dusty brims
saddle up, and test the wind
reins in hand, ride off to start again

until then we will stay in this ol' town
where we got lost, one day when we
was out a 'riding north, lookin' for
...

You think you know me, but you do not see
The depths of my soul, the secrets I keep,
The pains that I bear, the joys that I reap.
You see only what I let you perceive,
But there is more to me than meets the eye,
A kaleidoscope of colors, of...

In the waiting heart, God's voice,
like a sound of many waters
multitude of rainbows
shine, as pristine sparks...

Walk through fields of grass yet to die
Under mountains that rise into the sky
Swim in glass lakes that are frozen in time
This world created by the builder divine

Night stars shining like crystal lights
As placed by fingers, each one just...

Sleeping but my eyes are open. Love but need to be hated. You can see me but I'm lost in plane sight. Need to know who i am but it frightens me. I speak but I'm silent, never really heard.
Who am i? Do you know ..... i don't.

By,...

I live in a world where I feel like I'm nothing, nobody, alone, believing in love that does not exist. Waiting day after day, just me and my thoughts, often leading me into a dark place that's so hard to escape. Sometimes feeling such loss and...

Is something burning?

No, I don’t mean toast

Or anger.

I am talking some issue

Some ideal.

Been on your heart

In your mind, for days.

A poem in the birthing.

Could God be helpful

In the unraveling?

Ask Him.

Talk to...

Be Still ....with the moon and stars in sight,

as you stare above in the serene quiet of the night,

 as God speaks to you. Heals you. Calms you.

Feel the pulse of the universe running through your veins baring your soul ungloved,

...

Observing Clouds

As darkened thoughts,
float through blue sky mind,
a deeper truth,
I seek to find.

Standing back,
Observing them all,
Wondering,
If one may fall.

From blue sky mind
Rain on open lips,
An ocean takes
a truth, that...

You have taught me how to lie
Which was soothing for your eye
As you ears popped with excitement
My ears only complied with

 
My trust was tested like a fool
More than once I was deceived by you
Believing all your little lies and broken...

Am I okay? I’m fine.

As those words are spilling out of my mouth, I can feel that rope snaked around my chest begin to move. As if that question is connected to the end of my rope, and the second those three words slide off your lips, there's a...

You have heard me out

I’m a Friend devout

And I take this time

To tell you Jesus lives.

He has hope in store

Healing, comforts more

And assurance heavenly

He gladly gives.





Dump the long list sad

Deeds and words so...

I stand on the rock.
My foundation is built.
The water may rise.
Waves will hit.

I hear voice of many waters.
I do not stand alone.
I focus on the light.

The storm is upon us.
You are my beacon in the dark.
You are my peace in the...

Be still,
be gracious as the moon brace heaven.

 Let your presence be a light like the sun,
brighten the world.

 be the cloud that subside the heat,

 beneath the sun.


 the stars appear as seen suitable.
hidden beneath the cloud.
and...

I want to dance with the Trinity, three in one
I want to dance with the Most High God, El Elyon
I want to dance with Jesus my Bridegroom
I want to dance with the Holy Spirit my comforter
I want to dance yes, I want to dance

I want to dance...

Forever does unchanging love remain,
upholding grace and freedom in its wings,
I lonely and abandoned may appear,
empty of higher purpose or design,
in ignorance and isolation steer
dark images of suffering and fear.
Thus, unmet needs, desires...

Wonder

It is late at night
As I look into a crystalline sky
And ponder upon my smallness

I realise the stars are
The music of the universe
I am but one note on the staff

And I am...

'Me'


In this forum of poetry, I don't think I'm all alone.
Driven by thoughts and bursts from the soul,
To create that one 'perfect' poem.
Well, I have ten crates full of brilliance...
Dog-eared journals of life and fate...
Unfinished...

Your mercy, God, oh—how it startles us!
It shakes us loose from earthly things that bind,
Determined, grim, severe, it visits thus—
In pain, in death—what torment to the mind!

We push you out—no room within our hearts;
They’re full—of fear,...

He Shone a Light Upon My Spirit
A Light Within
A Light to be Seen
In Between
The Surface of Me & You…
Continue…
Continue…
Continue…
Continue…
Continue…
Continue…
Continue to Reach Above to
Glorify Him,
In His Name
For His Namesake
In...

"How Deep?"

Always strong and one for all
Until you break and down you fall
Perfection it was, thus anxiety ensued.
No longer successful and depression pursued.
Failure at its finest, or so I was once thought to believe.
Here, though I’m...

Resiliency-

The thoughts are intrusive,
this smiles a facade.
How can happiness be so elusive?
I'm truly a fraud.

Heavy is how I would describe depression,
but I remain steady
as I navigate its lesson.

It dampens the burden,
having...

Jesus came for all,
the young and the old,
to answer his call
no deed is too bold.

For women he cared,
the children he held
the brave men who dared
he did not...

When my heart does not feel right,
Sinful still and prone to fight,
Bad, impure, not shining light,
Be, dear Lord, its guiding light.

When my heart feels vile with blight,
Wants to wound, not suffer slights,
Seems it can’t do any right,
...

Eyes,
Shallow,
But waters deep,

Pools,
Of tears,
Never shed,

A heart,
Wronged,
And not right,

Was the well,
Tears to weep,
Were left,

A hole,
None filled,
Has...

She sat there fighting both;
Her untold words,
And her outspoken silence
Guarded only
By a distorted conception of self-mastery
An enduring belief that estrangement is...
The sole chance to be at home

With the rhythm of every smile
She...

It’s not enough to know your word,
Its time for me to live it!

I went to see my son today
And I thought about you Father.
The clouds were high and the sky was grey,
Your hands were in the water.

He stood outside his swimming pool,
I was...

Your eyes look sad and distant, but you say you are perfectly fine.

  Your heart feels heavy and blocked, but you say you feel the same as ever.

  Your mind appears to be full of...

I'm sorry that I let you down,
that I was just too meh to have met your crown.
Absent in time I never knew you enough,
and so far from home mum couldn't ruin your bluff.
Travelling roads that would last a while,
the school bell tolls and I'm...

No Coat of Arms, no Knightly charms
No Bishop's robe to don...
I do not ride a sturdy steed
I am just a pawn.

Kings will toast, and warlords boast
Of victories; 'til dawn
While I lay in a trench, of human stench...
I am just a pawn.

...

It is to you that I write,
On this dark, starry night,
Heart and soul heavy with memories,
Terrified to delve into pristine territories.

I remember you, slouching in front of the mirror,
And on your face, ran inky rivers,
Freeing your soul,
...

When you walk in the shoes of man;
The souls keep getting thinner.
And you can’t put your trust in them;
When summer turns to winter.

The worldly things you think are true,
Are often just deceptions.
That’s why you need a filter,
To improve...

A masquerade of strength and solidarity

 A smile concealing the pain

 No one will know what you're going through

 If you just keep playing the game


 Don't let anyone close enough

 To see behind those eyes

 They'll see what you've been hiding...

Once there was a tiny frog,
Who jumped inside a hollow log -
That rested on a bed of clay,
Beside the river’s edge one day.

And playing with his frog friends there,
He turned to them and did declare -
“I’ll count to ten,” he said with glee,
...

I tried to scream, but this time my voice failed me,
I tried to run, but my legs could no longer save me,
I tried praying, but even prayers couldn't comfort me,
I tried so hard, but all my efforts couldn't help me,
My time had come, my past had...

Sometimes when we speak the truth
we tell the biggest lie
Intention stealing from the facts

 meaning ill contrived

The pole is North though pointing South
when asked which way to go
when in the Northern Hemisphere
a liars truth misnome

...

Sitting in my own sorrow trapping myself in a corner allowing myself to suffer the pain that I am enduring

 Allowing the abuse one can inflict on another
God I ask for help
The power one can hold in fear of walking out but where do I go
Will he...

Pain unspoken
Emotions untamed
Hurt unaccounted for
Places upon me
With no regret or remorse insane
Lost souls drawn to my light
Leaving me fighting for my life
Pain so deep an endless fall
None to truly understand my mental stability at...

Where learning begins:
At the feet of the Master.
As a disciple.
To profit from the wisdom
That is garnered...

Listening

Do we listen to God when he tells us about something good that is about to happen to us (are we just too busy worrying about something else going on in this world)? We all should be listening to him.

Do we listen to our parents when...

I know you're real,
I didn't trust
I didn't believe
I doubt

I know you exist
I didn't see
I didn't hear
I didn't touch

I know you love
I close
I fall
I break

I know you're near
I go
I pray
I apologize

I know you forgive
You...

I cried out Lord, why me?
As Jesus walked on Jericho’s Road.
He washed away my sins and set me free.
I now understand why, he chose me.
Jesus had a plan.
I could not see.
The scales have been removed.
Now I can see. ...

Dear childhood friend,
remember how we used to play,
why did it have to end?

I miss the days spent
in our treehouse, the way we carelessly lay,
dear childhood friend.

the secrets shared with no offend,
the strawberry cake on your...

Jagged edges
Tearing my heart
Fragile soul
Ripping apart
Fractured thoughts
Locked down inside
Detonate
Like dynamite

Stop and breath
Cleanses deep
Exposing
What's underneath
Fallen down
Alone and lost
Carrying
A heavy...

Those words I write , only inspiration is you. I don't know why I move to you. Perhaps God wants this, that we will be together. Our love bond is made in heaven, tell me , this also in your heart....

You walk with me, in the cool of the garden.
You talk with me, let's discuss your life.
Abide in me as I in you.
Talk your heart's desire.
It is mine.
You were designed by me.
I align with you.
Trust in me.
Celebrate the jubilee. ...

To you, my beautiful soul.
To the one who never feels quite right.
To the one who never feels healed.
The one who feels like they’re never in the right place.

I hear you. I see you.
I see your messiness and you, my beautiful soul, do not...

Will you hear my Heart Calling
For it is crying out Please Love me
The ache inside seems so loud
Or is it quiet to the outside
It screams from within
But am I the only one that hears it

My eyes deepen with each cry
The tears fall and with...

I just wanna sleep and never wake up.
Look how much space I take up.
I wanna drop off this world and never return.
I dont wanna feel my life burn.
The mountain I've been climbing is way too high.
It seems to be going nowhere no matter how much...

I feed off other people's feelings.
If there is anger in my atmosphere I'm angry.
If there's happiness I'm happy.
The atmosphere has been so much hate and pain.
So I cry and hate and complain.

I wish my surroundings were full of happiness...

Do not mind my shame
It's always in the corner
Do not mind my pained
It got worse as I got older
Do not mind my thoughts
They are always in the air
Do not mind my mouth
My words are always there
Do not mind my hands
They are sudden and...

Put on the facade again today
Bright and beautiful
Fun and happy,
Pretend like everything is okay
When really inside, you're dying

Tired of faking
I just wanna be the real thing
No one wants that though
So I'll keep putting on my show,
...

The many broken people that walk the depths of this earth with quiet faces are called antisocial. My meaning of that is “the fear of what happens next”. Now that many others discriminate against anything whether you're called different or didn't...

I have a wonderful teacher
Who is as sweet as can be
You really should meet her
And then you will see

I have a wonderful leader
Who leads my path towards Christ
I realize now I really need her
She will do what's right with all comfort...

05/05/2022

Tell my story children.
Evangelize. Evangelize.
Speak the truth.
Fake news, you will fall.
Be my reporter.
Be the woman at the well.
The enemy runs in fear.
Devil you are a liar.
My God has already won. ...

Oh, give us pleasure in the flowers to-day;
And give us not to think so far away
As the uncertain harvest; keep us here
All simply in the springing of the...

I want my blue-ish eyes to see more.
I want my screaming ears to listen more intently.
I want to sharpen my mind.
I can strike my minds chords, I can create a beautiful rhythm.

If I press these keys, play these notes, I will produce harmony....

The Pain You Don't See:

The pain you don't see
Is the shattering pain
I feel over & over again

The pain you don't see
Is the voices inside my head
Telling me different ways to
Try it one day

The pain you don't see
Is the continuing...

She put herself last
For too many years
To help those she loved
Both far and near.
Without a second thought,
It was always a yes.
Sometimes she wondered,
How she became so blessed.

Suddenly, it changed
Her vision became clear
And her...