Lisa Lindstrom

Yorba Linda, CA

I am an adult survivor of Child Sexual, Physical and Emotional Abuse. This has been the thrust of the beginning of my poetry. I'm a High School Graduate and have run several offices. I enlisted in the U.S. Army National Guard. I've been Key Staff in Logistical Events such as the 1984 Presidential Election and Hands Across America. I have seven years of Insurance Adjusting experience from Automobile Appraisal to Slip and Fall Liability cases in Litigation. I had a fall at work and had to have neck surgery. I have recently published my first book of poetry entitled "Adequate Justice Beginning Healing Through Poetry" and will publish my second book entitled "Observing and Feeling While I am a Healing." I have started my third book.

Unfantasy

The purest heart's been torn the worst.
It never matters, last or first.
The scars, they're visible, but they are deep.
The mind builds walls. It plays for keeps.
Self Preservation helps build the fences.
Until we are lost in our defenses.
The courage to heal is the seed
which deserves attention, can quash the need
to ride that train towards insanity
and assure survival with vanity.
But rest certain, it took many years
to form the foundations of all the fears.
And the power needed to put them away
is immense, it is nothing with which to play.
So be patient, my friend
as I must also be.
I am the main character
in this unfantasy.

Reconstruction

I am now empty but once was so full
of anger and rage and love.
Now all I have are the pain and the shame
ruining the vision above.
My walls have fallen precariously;
My chimney no longer stands.
All because of the weight, fate and actions
of your ignorant damaging hands.
The problem I have does not lie in the bricks
for I was made of the best.
But the cement that was used, it crumbled so fast,
it couldn't handle the rest.
So now all alone I must recreate what I knew
in my heart must be right.
And I wholeheartedly pray my cement is mixed well
As I'll be paving and paving all night.