Bethani Ann DeLong

Lebanon, PA

Presently residing in Switzerland, Bethani Ann is a teacher of EFL who moonlighted as a radio DJ. A former member of the JET Program(me), she spent 1991-1994 teaching in Japan. A graduate of Sarah Lawrence College, she spent her junior year abroad at their Paris campus. From 1989-1990, she served as vocalist on the international LYE team "New Vision," which toured Australia, PNG and the USA coast to coast. A voracious reader and prolific writer from an early age, she loves playing with words, creating images tangible enough to taste them rolling off the tongue.

Communication?

Communication
We talked across an invisible curtain
Both of us using a second language
Trying to express our
Maternal thoughts.

In a locked room
Fearful I'd never return to talk again,
To continue our sad comedy of misunderstanding
You couldn't bear to let me go.

In the end,
Our only fluent tongue was body language.
Yours more violent, due to passion
Reducing me to a series of flinches and dodges.

Exhausted
Mental, spiritual, emotional, internal wounds
Bruises won't show their colors for long if at all.
I understood your meaning across the verbal barrier.

Anger

You amplified the television
To hide our shouts
(I was never sure from whom)
You locked the door
To keep me in or others out
(I was never sure which)
You took the key
To place it out of reach
(I was never sure where)
You smashed a glass
To show your frustration
(I was never sure about what)
You drew the curtains
And my blood with them
(I was never sure why)
You broke my heart
To prove I'd broken yours
(I was never exactly sure when)

Broken

I crumble bits of bread into miniscule fragments;
Chalk color on crimson cloth.
Your words pulverize my heart and soul;
Scarlet drops seeping into white shag
I drain away like the color from my face.
Irreparable, everything stains or is trampled underfoot.
If I were shattered glass, I could fight back,
With even my smallest sliver
As you grind me into your calloused heel.

Mona Lisa

Gritting my teeth
I bite my tongue under my Mona Lisa smile.
Grating words intensify
The glare of the grin and glint of my eye.
Oblivious,
The words continue to spurt out
Like blood would, if looks could kill.


All poems Copyright © 1996 Bethani Ann DeLong. All rights reserved