Forever

I have talked about it and wrote about it and wrote about is some more,
In spite of my best efforts I became the same as I was before, 
You may ask what is now different than any other time,
Like back when I used drugs or commited so much crime,
The difference I tell you now is that God has intervened,
He has burned into my heart that His name will not be demeaned,
I cannot say I am His and truly be on the level,
If all the while I am out there behaving like the devil,
Provoking a Holy God and forcing Him to grab my heart,
Is a very frightful thing and truly not too smart,
For God's ways are forever and they do not change,
How can I know Him and find his correction strange,
The truth is I cannot I have followed my own will,
Then just when I needed it most He showed me He loves me still.